Seahorses are amazing creatures. Because although they seem quite useless, they have been able to do something very few humans can even grasp the concept of accomplishing. Because when a seahorse finds a mate they stay with them forever. They link their tails together and never let go. They realize they have found everything they need and they are happy. I wish we were like seahorses. I would have found you and you would have found me. And we would have linked tails and never let go. And nobody would have been able to pull us apart. And I wouldn't be missing you because I would be right next to you. All worries would be abolished because I would know it was just me and you. I know I said never again but truth be told you're all I can think about these days. And I know it's not you I miss, it's the life I had when I had you. It's the fact that I don't want to look around at this and have it be all that I am. It;s the fact that I never minded looking into your eyes and seeing all that I was. I was a better person when I was with you. I was brave and I didn't care what people thought. I took chances, one too many but in the end it never should have mattered. I mean I loved you, and I was sure of that no matter what other bullshit I was going through. I could be sure of that. I miss that. I miss my life. I miss our late night conversations. I miss hearing your stories. I miss getting that rush when I saw you. I miss you.