I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm weak. I'm sorry that I fear so much. I'm sorry that I'm scared my life will repeat itself. I'm sorry for what I'm about to do to you. You know how I feel, and you know what I want. But I'm not strong enough to risk everything for it. I lie, to everyone, everyday, and know I'm lying to you. But you know what, I don't fucking trust you enough to risk everything. I just can't keep going with this. I feel like I cry all the time. I feel like I lie all the time. I can't keep compressing my emotions. I can't keep being this person that I'm not.