Everybody assumes that just because I always have a smile on my face, I'm always happy. They always assume nothings wrong with me. But don't I ever get to be the one who is upset? The one who needs comfort and care. Why do I always have to take care of myself? Nobody really knows me I guess. I mean there is not one single person in the world who knows close to everything about my life. Even those who I have known forever, they don't know anything. Anything at all. Nobody knows that I constantly feel undermined, defeated, alone. I feel like people assume too much in this world. They think everything revolves around them. But growing up in a world where you have always been second best, you learn to loose that feeling. I know I'm not the center of attention. I know I'm not that girl. It's like living in a fairytale but the fairy godmother never comes. The prince falls in love with the evil step-sister. And there in no happily ever after. And everyone tells me blah blah blah you are to young for love blah blah blah just wait till you are older. But what does age have to do with love? Love is ageless. You can fall in love whenever. I think time and age are just stupid restrictions set up to hold us back. It's just like fuck off let me live my life.

Do I ever get to be upset?

Do I ever get to be anyone but me?

-Effy Stonem

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